i want to tell you a story

i want you to believe

but i want you to think

and i want you to be aware

i want you to see the light

and i want you to peer underneath

i want your hearts to weep

i want you to think

of the last time you looked into someone else's eyes

someone who had just cried

red and wet with misery

and you didn't know who this person was

but for that moment you were one


how did you feel?

did you walk away?

you didn't care about her day?

you didn't think of your last night alone?

when you cried while your stereo was on?

i bet you thought she didn't want to talk to you

i bet you couldn't see that she was lonely too

i bet you were so concerned with that strangers view

that you ran away from what you knew you wanted that night

someone to do for you too.


so what if you did?

would it make a difference?

tell me if you had no comfort

wouldn't you welcome a friend?

someone who couldn't be a judge?

someone who cared out of pure love?

someone who listened for once

just because they could?


so you listened away

and she said why she cried

how she's spent so much time

contemplating so much of life

and how much it really meant

to be a part of this world

to be another lonely girl

another face in the crowd

looking around

but not knowing what for


and you don't know what she means

you don't know if she can smile

you don't know if she always feels this way

or if it's just for this little while

but you listen away

though you don't know what to say

because you're afraid

you don't want to make it worse

but you, you worry too much

because nothing ever was hurt

by being given a little love


you should tell her it's okay

because we're all lonely sometimes

we all have these days

we all spend hours contemplating our lives

and how much they really mean

at the end of all things

"young girl, you're not as alone as you think

young girl, i cry sometimes too

i wonder, just like you"


and she looks up from her tears

looks back into your eyes

wonders if you're lying

or if you are really trying

because she has no idea who you are

or why you picked her that day

but she starts to smile

because she knows she isn't alone

because why would a stranger lie

when he tries to make everything all right?

and she starts to smile

and she laughs to herself

because she doesn't even know you

but she knows you're on her side


and you smile back

and you don't know what to say

so you ask her if she feels better

knowing her answer is a yes

and she wipes her eyes one last time

stands up tall and looks to the sky

"i don't believe in angels.

and i don't believe in God.

but now i do believe that strangers

can be kind for no real cause.

thank you

for reminding me

what it really means

to live in this world

to have a mind full of hope

and a heart full of love"


and she wanders off

with a quick wave goodbye

and you return to your home

and turn your stereo on

and you cry to yourself

because you can't believe what you've done

you can't believe how simple it was

to make someone smile

how easy it can be

to turn a day around

and you realized for once

that no one really is alone

we're all here for each other

even someone unknown

all it takes is one move

one decision to care

to brighten someone else's world

someone who felt no one there



what will your move be?

when you see a stranger cry?

will you be too afraid to speak up?

or will you show her, what it really means, to be alive?

Forgiven.





No regrets. Just memories. Just pictures.




One thousand words each.

okay... I came out to my parents about my new eating habits and they prompty mocked me =[. my mom said it wasn't healthy (false) and that I'm gonna have to eat meat until we run out of leftovers at least and that I should just be vegetarian at school. she made me eat chicken last night. I tried not to but she emphatically pointed at it on my plate and told me to put it in my mouth haha. eugh.

now I know how a gay kid who gets rejected by his parents feels hahah. almost.

WHAT THE FRACK THE FOOD NETWORK IS GONE!!!

Apparently my cable provider and the food network's company (along with HGTV) are having contract issues and both are off the air at the moment.

How can you get rid of the food network???????

Oh man.

Frack.

I made a twitter.

Shoot me.

fishp0ker8



I can only resist society for so long before I become too detached.

The world is changing.

I hate it but I guess I need to come to terms with it and just learn to accept the crazy technological obsession everyone has. Sigh.

I'm way too black & white for it to work out very long though hahaha


Happy New Years!

I think.. my New Years resolution is to go veggie.

I've always been a sympathizer but never really could give it up. Steak is yummy.

But...I pretty much am a vegetarian while I'm at school though.

And I found this cookbook with a million and a half delicious looking vegan recipes.

I'm supposed to be a hippy right... I should start living the part hahah.

And.. it's much healthier for you too!

I'll half give up dairy too... but that's mostly because milk makes my stomach hurt and I love everything soy hahah

I'm hella over it.

If I'm not feeling it lately- I'm going nowhere near it. Come at me with bullshit, you don't get shit.
Understand?

How does one who feels nothing get that satisfaction one only gets from conquering pain you thought was impossible?

The warmth of the fire every piece of broken flesh burns with?
The heartbeat every bruise pulses to your brain?
That dizzy feeling that makes you feel as if you're inhaling faith itself that's only amplified when it slows.

I want to do this!
I have to do this.
By God, I can't wait to do this.

Because other people are smart enough to think of sending a text saying...

" (562): he ate 15 dinner rolls and nothing else. then took a shit in the bathroom came out and blamed it on his dad. i wish i was 8."

One of my favorite words is "rapture."

And "maniacally."

And "cocolithophore."

...

lol.

Only one more semester and I am a College Graduate!!! Gotta get my GPA up but a 3.3 isn't to bad.

Happy Christmas everyone! =]